One of my (much) younger brothers posted a comment on yesterday's blog entry. He used it as a metaphor of course, but he basically said we go through storms all the time. How we handle them is what's important. He also said that he didn't know if what I was doing was right, but he and my sister-in-law have decided to support me. Other sibs have said basically the same thing.
Normally I love thunderstorms, what bugged me the other night was that they were so loud I couldn't sleep. But storms themselves hold no fear. I'm fascinated by the power and majesty that nature (God) exhibits for us.
Yet, I respect storms. I won't be outside holding a golf club daring God to hit me. I will go on the porch however, to get a bit closer to the excitement.
The storm I'm going through right now is one of my own making, and although I'm a bit scared about all the work I have to do to make this happen, I'm not fearful of my choice. This is the right thing to do. Our country is selfish as a whole. And I certainly am. As an actor and/or comedian, I'm also self-aware enough to know how narcissistic I am.
I want, I need to think about the well-being of others instead of just myself. Sure, I can do that within the confines of my "normal" life, but for me it's not enough. At my job today I'm dealing with all the news reports of school shootings dating back to 1997. Now I just received a news alert that a commercial airliner has been hijacked in Greek airspace. And of course we could list tons of other examples of how some humans behave.
How can we influence that? Prayer, certainly. Action, too. Sitting alone in my little condo, I know that I can do my small part to make the world better. To some, it may seem dramatic. But I'm alone. My children are established and happy and need nothing from me, except my love and support. (And even though they may not totally understand why I'm doing what I'm doing, they are so WONDERFUL!) I have no fear about my choice.
I thank those who love me who are worried about me. Please do your best not to worry. I've been divorced since 1983 and I've made plenty of stupid and dangerous choices in my life. This is not one of them.
I love you all!